You are the One you have been waiting for. You are that which you seek.

I am in the process of learning how to heal conflicts within.

I have always been highly sensitive, empathic. And so I hid within myself for much of my life, overwhelmed by the intensity of those about me. I had my own intensity, my own passion. I just didn't project it loudly as others in my life did.

When I was a teenager, I learned to confront others when I felt the need to clear conflict. This was quite a stretch for me and thus resulted in tremendous growth. It was effective in most cases, but there were some cases in which it had no effect whatsoever. Sometimes, people are just not in a place where they can hear or accept what you have to say.

I now understand that all conflict is created within me. The lesson for me now is to clear those conflicts which can only be moved by a miracle of love and grace by going within and calling the spirit of grace and love to fill and surround the situation and/or by practicing other clearing and healing techniques.

I have found this quite effective, if only to raise my vibrations, which is all it takes to attract more to feel good about.

Be careful what you ask for. I can't count the number of times I have heard that. And there's a reason for it. Ask for all to be made new, for example, and the beginning of your answer will be the death of the old. 

So now,  I have dubbed 2008 my Year of Deconstruction. In 2008, I experienced the systematic deconstruction of many of the structures of my life, chiefly my self-concept. But what is a self-concept but a collection of ideas? Ideas that when examined closely, seldom have any basis in fact.

Would I go back and change this deconstruction? No way! I am building of my life a temple, and I wouldn't want to build a temple on a cracked foundation.

So, the truth is, I won't be careful. I want growth and realization of my highest good, even though it will cost me all that I claim to be, to own, to have - every attachment. It is well worth the cost.

Life is sacred. All is sacred.

After my Year of Desconstruction, I am beginning to rebuild based on the truth of who I really am. The things I once thought about myself were a shaky foundation to build on. Based on childhood perceptions, I believed that I was unworthy, unwanted, unlovable.

But Life began shining the light on these perceptions several years ago, and the structures of my life began falling away, including those false beliefs. This peaked in the past year, and it feels like the deconstruction is complete or mostly complete.

Now, I am stepping into who I really am and allowing the power of the love and light within to guide me in recreating my life experience in a way that resonates deep within my soul.

More and more this includes connecting with people who are also awake and flowing love and light to those who still seem to be snoozing. We cannot make anyone awaken or heal, but we can certainly invite them. I find that doing this by going within creates profound changes without.

I do take time for spiritual practice, usually in the morning. This could include prayer, meditation, or listening to something that inspires me. I try not to lock myself down to anything, and instead stay open to what  is needed in the moment.

Increasingly, I am realizing all of life as spiritual practice. Any time I don't feel wonderful, I take it as a signal to go inside and heal whatever is troubling me. When I do feel wonderful, that is the perfect opportunity to flow gratitude and appreciation.

Osho said the mind doesn't create problems. The mind IS the problem. The mind loves to look for problems because one of its major jobs is to solve problems.

The mind is a powerful tool, but allowed to run rampant, it will find problems all over the place.

I find I often have to throw it out of the driver's seat back into the back seat where it belongs.

What gives me the most strength now and always is the realization that I have all the strength and power I will ever need.

Feelings of weakness and helplessness are illusory.

Love is what I am and love is the mightiest power there is.

I am very thankful for the wonderful people who are continually coming into my life. Every connection and every interaction is a divine appointment and I am blessed to experience each one.

We are the balance or we are the chaos, depending on how we are deciding to be.

The life force within this body, and bliss arises when I make that connection. Then the question arises, Why don't I do this more often? :)